I’ve always thought if I played it safe, followed the rules I’d get ahead in life. I wouldn’t be stuck, I wouldn’t feel trapped. I was wrong, I’ve been wrong. That’s not how the real world works.
Yes rules are there for a reason and like everything else if you break the rules you have to face the consequences. To me it feels that I’ve been following the rules and watching the rule breakers soar ahead.
Have you ever had that thought? I have, I’m having it now as I pour my self into this piece. This is not something I’m hearing from a girlfriend whose venting. This is me feeling all these emotions. I’ve worked proved myself and gotten sidelined over and over again. We have this saying ” A Cat and A Dog doesn’t have the same luck” . Ever since I’ve heard that saying I’ve been playing it safe with everything in my life.
I’m not saying that I’m about to go rob a bank. No, I’m thinking that it’s time to take a stand ,whose to say things will end badly? I mean this feeling and these words have been holding me back and like the butterfly it’s time I break out of that cocoon and soar.
It’s scary, it’s nerve-wracking but I will be better off. Safe feels good, being cautious is ok but nothing fun happens there. The people who makes it big didn’t play it safe. Can you imagine Oprah Winfrey playing it safe after being fired? Or Michelle Obama?
As I write , they’re two things I have to do before I close out 2021 and I know once I’ve unlocked that part of my life, nothing I mean nothing is going to hold me back. I have been holding me back. I’m the one who needs to get out of my head. Stop being an overthinker and think positive , I am and I can. Break free from my cocoon.
I’ve made the first step to recovery admitting fault, it’s invigorating and I feel like now I can take on everything. My mind, I’ve been holding me back, thinking I would fail or I will get in trouble.
Greatness is in me and greatness is in you. A friend of mine have been putting off going back to school because like me they’ve convinced themselves that they’re not good enough, I won’t make the qualifying exams to matriculation. Last night, she called me to view her results , she did the exams ,studied applied herself and in the hour of truth couldn’t bring herself to view the results. She called me ,very anxious, nerves all over the place- Dee ,girl what if I failed, it’s been 20 years, I don’t have anymore time, all the excuses you could think of.
I entered her details and when I saw the results ,I paused for a minute. She was still going on and on about how she doesn’t know what she’d do if she’d fail.
Telling her how smart and amazing she was and how proud I was of her calmed her down a bit. Congratulations 👏you’re going to University. Tears of joy, immediately she started speaking positively believing that after 20years she had fulfilled a childhood dream, go to University. Achieving all this especially in a pandemic with a chaotic family life. My friend has broken her cocoon and now she flies ….
Join us and breakfree from your cocoon. Let’s do this thing together.
Feel free, be free …
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I’ve mentioned my friend Sally* before, we were having a conversation today over coffee. It was good to see her. It’s almost midnight and I’ve realized that I haven’t made a post entry. We’ve got to figure out a blogging schedule going forward.
Letting Go- You will not heal until you’ve let go of what broke you; say that again. Those words came up in our conversation and I thought they were very profound.
Do you find it hard to find closure after a bad break up? Do you still feel that you need to give them a second chance because it was “your” fault why that thing happened and if you just gave them another shot things will get better? Do you still find it hard to hold onto that friendship because you grew up in the same neighborhood went to the same middle school? It could be your job, friendship, relationship whatever it is until you let go and rid yourself of the hurt you will not find peace.
2021 is a few weeks away. Start over, find the peace that you truly deserve. Your happiness means more than anything else. Take that leap and let Let Go, you’d be better off for it.Let Go…
Just saw the beautiful woman on Twitter share how she has left her boyfriend of 8 years 🙌🏿👏 @matthewstam1. I hope they’re other brave men and women like her who chose peace and happiness first. Let Go….
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It’s funny as things seemed to be going great for my blog weird things starts to happen. I finally got some time to check out my favorite blogs, engage and check out the latest happenings.
I’m shocked to learn that I’m no longer able to view my followers. I am not sure if anyone is still here. If you’re still around I’d appreciate it if you not only liked this post but also comment.
I’m just going to take this as an opportunity to start over. Life happens I guess. I have so many things planned out for this blog/website. I’m currently working on my logo and the whole look and feel of it. I’m excited and I can’t wait for you all to see it.
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It’s crazy how sometimes you feel as if things are just not going the way you want them to. You pay your bills on time, you take care of your family, water the plants, feed the cats. Somehow you are left to find yourself sitting down looking out in oblivion. Your innermost thoughts are trapped inside wanting to scream. You catch your breath, you wipe the tears, closing your eyes just wishing this feeling of hopelessness would go away.
Somebody anybody, when will it be my turn. You’re doing everything by the books, you pay your goddamn taxes, you have no tickets, you help your neighbor carry her groceries, but,you just can’t catch a break.
Sally* my friend decided to vent to me just now-Text message notification on my phone interrupted her thoughts –
” I miss you- JD”
Why now? It’s been (6) months after that messy breakup, the breakup of the century, breakup in a pandemic. We warned her but she didn’t listen, he is tall, athletic, has a successful business, the sex was great but; he had a bad temper. Things didn’t work out, he cheated on her.
Sally, is one of my closest friends and it has been a rough couple of months for her.
“I’m not going back there, nope. I’ve moved on. It has been a long and hard journey but I’m in a better place right now. I am up for a promotion at work and there’s no time to get caught up with great sex JD. “
Being single at Christmas time in a pandemic is different. There are days when she feels as if the world is going to end, days like today when she feels overwhelmed. She has to remind herself of the goal. She has a plan and she will stick to it. She’s now focused on things that were ignored in the past.
How do you cope at Christmas time as a single person?
To be continued….
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Ive been MIA with good reason but I’m back to just say how awesome it is that I have not 1 or 2 but 50 amazing people who thinks that what I have to say is pretty cool. Helllo🤗, Hi 👋lol. I’m pretty siked;🎉🥳🥳 when I started this blog in October I wasn’t really sure how all this would turn out but here we are exactly two (2) months in.
The name is Dee and Deecbooks the blog is just my therapy in a sense. I read books and talk about what I like and or didn’t like. I also share random things that is happening in my daily life. This is my think out loud blog, my e-diary.
I will share this with you, thieves tried to break into our apartment this morning and managed to get some gadgets. They didn’t enter Thank God. My family is ok, I am ok, just a bit shaken up. The gadgets can be replaced and my window.
Be vigilant everyone, as some would say, its also silly season. Some not so very nice persons are on the look out trying to take things that are not theirs.
Thanks again my Deecbookers. We will chat soon 🙂
Until Next time…